Sunday, August 20, 2017

First Outing - With le Son! :)

Yesterday was the first time we brought my son out to a mall in hopes that he gets used to the car seat and stroller before a longer journey this weekend.

My parents, confinement lady (kakak) and me sat down at a restaurant and ordered our food. My son was sleeping soundly in his stroller, placed just beside our table.

While waiting for our food, my father decided to take a walk in the mall. The rest of us stayed behind, when I soon noticed one masculine waiter.

He was tall, wore earrings and his head was shaved by the sides and the rest of his blonde hair was tied neatly into a ponytail. Soon I noticed that this masculine waiter had a very strong, enthusiastic, WOMAN’s voice as he/she served plates of food to other tables.

Soon she brought food to our table. As she was about to place the plates for us, she accidentally kicked my son’s stroller. It was just a small kick, where she proceeded to say ‘Eh ada baby!’ Me and my mother exchanged looks, more to feeling ahhh it’s alright, as my son was still sleeping soundly and it was basically a small matter.

As she left our table, the only thought that crossed my mind was: “Ah, Allah sayangkan dia.”
My post-partum brain (HAHA) was surprised at my own ‘reflex’ thought.

It is something I automatically say when someone escapes my father’s protective (sometimes reasonable) nature.

Had he been there, at the table with us to witness her to accidentally kick my son’s stroller.. Well, be rest assured that some tables would at least perform a somersault or two. Or someone would break out into a fight or end up crying. Or we would leave the restaurant. Or.. You get the idea :P

Indeed, Allah loves her. Regardless of what society would like to label her based on her appearance, Allah loved her enough to escape inciting WW3 with my father yesterday XD

Allah is indeed, the Most Merciful and the Most Loving
 
We who like to label others, how confident are we that Allah loves us more than the others?

PS: To those who feel like outcasts and like you do not belong, remember that Allah is always there for you, and you DO belong, to Him :) <3 p="">
 Yours truly- It has been a while, dear blog. I have a son now! :D

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

I Got Hitched! :)

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.!

Ahh it has been a million years (kidding, perhaps about a year plus?) since my last blog here! I apologise for all the dust that had accumulated here :P

I have been pretty busy the past year (definitely an interesting and blessed year, Alhamdulillah :D) as we all know that teachers ARE SO FREE RIGHT? 2015 was a crazy year, but indeed full of tests and blessing by Him :)

The main reason why I stopped blogging tremendously over here was because I discovered instagram (as I do love to take pictures) and I don't really like the idea of sharing sharing everyting on Facebook. I love taking pictures, but it's mainly for my own memory keepsake :) As to the reasons why I blog here too! It's just for my own personal note-taking for my goldfish memory, as my lovely housemate once stated :P

Anddd I'm the type of person who takes my blogs sort of like my artwork? Hence I really spend a lot of time writing my events and memories here, arranging the pictures to perfection (OCD sikit haha) and then only clicking 'post'. Hence the time and effort needed to blog is now a luxury to me. Instagram has helped me to keep my posts short (haha my ULTIMATE weakness!) and to also have a more private audience to share my pictures/posts with.

Previously, I would not have minded at all for posting pictures and my life stories here, but ever since I became a teacher, my audience expanded. Well, not too much of course, but a number of my children are curious little kids :P Not forgetting the new communities I'm in as well XD

I also share most of my kids' stories on Facebook, because I'd knew that those posts will at least enlighten someone's day, or give my friends a glimpse of the reality of our kids today.

So once again, apologies for the lack of updates/posts :) I guess I have grown to have more human interaction too since I became a teacher, equals to less social media interaction (bunyi mcm forever alone tak? :P)

Okay putting all seriousness and depressing notes aside, I GOT MARRIED! Alhamdulillah :)
Truly, I am indeed blessed to have met my husband in the most funniest way possible XD Let's just say that I owe a lot to my dear friend from Minnesota. You know who you are! And I'm working to find you a wife too XD AMIN!

Alhamdulillah all went well and we are officially husband and wife! :) *stories of the wedding journey and the reception... NOT SURE if I'd be posting it here or not but we'll see :P*



 *Little sneak peaks of the Nikah :D*

I was actually not at my very best weight as all my diet plans failed due to my enormous love for FOOD :P I think many people were just simply very nice to me and never mentioned ANYTHING about my weight or chubbiness during the wedding reception :P Or perhaps my height sort of covered my extra bundles of joy? XD

Well, returning back to school was when many people noticed. To be honest, I didn't gain weight because of the wedding! I gained some because my life became sedentary when I started invigilating SPM, while my food consumption remained as per normal (which is A LOT! Many people have a hard time believing I eat A LOT. I DO! Just ask my husband :P)

Sooo of course, some of my colleagues start to relate my weight gain to 'tanda bahagia' or because of the wedding. No it is not I tell you! Haha :P But deep down inside, no girl would want to be told they have gained weight especially if they had weight and body issues before. Yg paling best is kids mmg lagilah takde penapis dekat mulut :P I forgive youuu you terrible little child! XD

Alhamdulillah, Allah had enlighten my heart yesterday :) 
I stayed back after school as we had a meeting for Merentas Desa, then it was the practice for the event itself so I stayed in school (malas nak balik ulang-alik) until it was like 5.30pm. So imagine the amount of oil on my face I could use to goreng karipap and nuggets :P

But before I managed to get to my car, two of my ex-students (I unfortunately am not teaching them this year! They are in Form 5 :( ) Approached me and asked me about my wedding. They wanted to see pictures too, so I showed them perhaps only 3 pictures, because they wanted to see my HUSBAND HAHA :P 

As they looked at the pictures, they said 'Teacher, IS THAT YOU??' and I don't remember how many times I said 'Ahhh it's because of the makeup!' Since I don't wear any makeup (only on super special occasions, like getting married XD and when I have the mood on weekends?) I told them it's the makeup that was making me look different. 

The boys started complimenting on how pretty I looked, that I looked like a princess in red for my reception and that my husband was a lucky man. Really, how can you not smile at their super sincere and honest comments? :) I did try to ask them, why is he lucky? They were like of course lucky teacher! Teacher so kind, caring and pretty! 

One boy also actually tried to kipas2 himself and catch his breath after looking at the pictures in disbelief. HAHAHA So cute lah youuu XD 

One thing I remembered clearly was when I tried to justify that my makeup made me look different, one boy actually told me 'But teacher, teacher with no makeup already pretty!'

You have no idea how both of you made my day :') Alhamdulillah. Indeed Allah hears your little insecurities and make you happy through the most mysterious ways.

 *Sneak peak #2 :P Percaya tak I don't even remember how the cake looks like?*


*nak berbangga skit with these Doorgifts :P Ehem!*

Until next time! ;) 

P.S. Thank you for choosing me dear! :D I have won the race BAHAHAHA :P 

Lots of love, 
Iliani :)

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Raya Dua Kali.. Or Tiga





















Assalamualaikum w.b.t. :) 
Gosh, it had been agess since the last time I updated my blog. Definitely LOADS of things had happened so far. I'm gonna have to depend on my pictures to help recall all these stories XD
So based on the pictures above:
- New baju raya was last-minute; I received it a day before I went back to Subang! And I managed to accidentally find a matching skirt for my baju haha weird enough but truly grateful :)
-Dapat Raya with besties!! Both of them came to my house with their families :) Thank you so much!
- Got a new phone with my sis; mainly because her old phone was dying on her and I had always had a crush on Xperia Sony phones :P And knowing the mengada me, I had to get golden stickers/skin for it and a wonderful transparent cover!

- Finally got that high-heel mint green shoes for my best friend's wedding in November! Was definitely a challenge trying to get heels sbb the dress is very labuh :O

- Went to a few weddings recently; Kak Fizah in Kamunting and Adeelah's wedding in Kedah! Was definitely a fun trip to Jitra :D First time! Semoga sentiasa bahagia sehingga ke Jannah :)

-Meet up with some ol' Pennstaters. I don't think I've gotten any taller haha XD

Well that's all so far. I'd have to transfer all the pictures first before I could write more. 'Till next time :)



Monday, May 26, 2014

Lots and lots of Lemons

Assalamualaikum!

I know that this blog is supposed to be a place for me to record only those sweet memories and events that have happened, but maybe just this once I should place a little bit of complaint :P

Sometimes people think that I lead a very happy, wonderful and problem-free life. Well, just because not everyone are the type to post their WHOLE life stories on social media, doesn't mean that they do not face challenges as well. And didn't Allah mention it in the Qur'an as well? He will not just place iman in the believers and not test them. Allah loves those He tests :) (amin!)

Okay just to keep things short, everything that could go wrong in this week or two did go wrong haha XD Gosh, all from losing our important props for drama, exam scores that you just have no power of controlling to getting a low number for a project I'm working on. I wonder if some people are aware that they actually break your heart by doing what they do.

But Alhamdulillah, Allah shows His mercy and Love in the most mysterious ways :) Aside from feeling that my uterus was about to fall out, I was questioned by someone that I thought would actually throw a million knives and hit me and other innocent bystanders haha XD But instead, encouraging words and wisdom were shared to the floor. Okay, some tricks were involved but Alhamdulilah! I was completely taken by surprised to be gaining support when I was expecting disaster, tragedy and mayhem.

Tambah2 lagi uterus mcm nak jatuh tercabut tergolek. But now that I thought back about it, the pain and cramps actually help me take my focus off the recent failures and instead, be focused on the pain haha :P At least it helped me not to shed tears during the QnA. I think had I not had my uterus menari2 secara salah in my body, I might have cried like a baby :P

Alhamdulillah, thank you oh Allah for the strength (or pain haha) that You've blessed me with. Everything is definitely under Your plans, and You know Best :)

To a nice holiday re-strategizing and resting too. Not giving up just yet! :)

Friday, May 23, 2014

I'm 24

Being hit by a lot of work lately, I felt like I was about to drown until..

*A day before my birthday*

Student randomly asked: Teacher, tomorrow is your birthday right? I REMEMBER!
(Awww so sweet! And I thought people forgot :P)

*on my birthday*

During EXAM:
Student raises hand to call me during exam. She then proceeds to whisper..

'Teacher, happy birthday..' And smiled.

And thennn a few other students did the same. I was like 'thank you but shhhh do your exam XD'

Some of them even got me presents. And tudungs! I was deeply touched :')

 
<3 :="" p="">

*ye dah tua dah huaa*

One student that I don't even teach actually made Kek Batik for me. Huuuu thank youu T^T


Also got an unexpected dinner treat by my collab yay! Thank you :)

After EXAM:
So our school always has this sambutan Bulan Kelahiran, where they will announce the attributes of the people born in that particular month, call the teachers born in that particular month to come up stage to receive a birthday card and later cut the cake together.

As the teacher was reading the attributes for March babies, the things that stuck out the most were: Baik, penyabar, penyayang, tetapi KELAM KABUT dalam mencari pasangan.

I burst into laughter on that one. Memang tak boleh tahan betol! XD

*Birthday Card! Yay :D*


*credits to Miss Suzanne! Thank you :D*

A few days before my birthday, Taran and his friend visited Kamunting and we managed to go to the Zoo. We had loads of fun as it was our first time visiting that particular zoo! Except for his friend I think since he was FROM taiping itself haha :p


Really fierce bear to other fellow bear :P

*crocodileee*

*happy elephants are happy :D*



Long overdue post, I know. I have been super duper busy with the kids, drama practice, exam, lecturer observations, personal life (if I actually still have any left haha) etc etc...

Insya-Allah, will try to post more things here before I actually forget them. Gah memoryyy XD But so far, Alhamdulillah for everything that has happened. Thank you Allah for giving me a chance to live up till today, even though I am far from deserving of so much of Your love, blessings and mercy. I put my Faith in You :')

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.

Till next time!

Salam :)








Saturday, January 4, 2014

Random Kindness

So I just arrived at the post office to pay my electricity bill and I took the number to wait for my turn. When I looked at the current number that they were serving, it showed that I had to wait for more than 10 people in line to go ahead of me; my number was 1129.

Since I wasn't in a rush, I just sat down to wait for my turn.
While waiting, I took out my Sejarah textbook and workbook because yes, I am a teacher haha XD

Because I was working on the workbook (you see, I can't just read the textbook or I'll fall asleep), my head was facing downwards when something happened. I suddenly heard a man's voice saying "Nah dik." and I looked up immediately to see a piece of paper right in front of me.

Me being so surprised (and blur) at that moment, I think I said 'ah?' in reply while taking the paper from the man who was probably in his late 30s or early 40s. He simply head out of the post office after I took the paper.

When I looked at the paper, it was numbered 1124. I guess it was his number and maybe he tak jadi nak do whatever he wanted to do at the post office? XD

I thought it was strange of him to give it to me because there were quite a lot of other people in the room who came earlier and he could have given it to them. But Alhamdulillah, he gave it to me and I get to reach my turn earlier :)


It could be that he simply saw me as the last person to come in at that moment before he left and that is why he passed on his paper to me. But whatever the reason is, I was truly grateful for his random act of kindness, and also for Allah for showering me this little mercy which made me so happy ^v^

Alhamdulillah :) And thank you pakcik for your kindness! :))





Pocahontas

Pocahontas was one of my favourite Disney movie back when I was little.

I would watch the movie over and over again, sneakily watch Pocahontas 2 (putting in the CD into the VCR and quickly taking it out again when my parents came back home haha XD) And of course, during my early days of drawing, she was one of the inspiration for my cartoon characters.

- aka I would always draw my main characters living in a forest, always so animal-friendly XD-

Back in those days, I didn't really thought about what made me so attracted to this particular movie and character.
Now that I am reaching my 24th birthday (Alhamdulillah. Yes, I am already old), while listening to the conversations going around in class among my peers, they were debating on which favourite Disney movie they liked.

Some said Beauty and the Beast, Mulan, Pocahontas, etc.

To be honest, when I remembered Pocahontas and Mulan in my mind, I did not remember them as 'Disney movies'. I remembered the stories, the characters, the amazing music (which I admit I did try to sing :P)

*the music back in the days are soooo much better and deep compared to today's music. Just listen to the lyrics!*

I remembered the essences of the movie. The word 'Disney' was one of the last words that came to mind. 

I was definitely devastated when I found out the true history of the real Pocahontas. With that being into my knowledge, I still missed and loved the fantasy version of the story within the movie and still hold her as one of my favourite cartoon characters.

After coming across a few Youtube videos on the making of Pocahontas, and getting a praise that relates me to Pocahontas (which gave me a hugee smile on my face because I really loved Pocahontas :D) then I finally realised why I loved her and the movie so much.

The character Pocahontas was portrayed as very mature, intelligent, exciting person but poised at the same time. She was not those childish characters who waited for her prince to save her, or was sheltered in a castle (she lived in a forest and knew the terrain well!) And of course, because she was also beautiful at the same time even though she is not white; which is what Asians (or Malaysians at least) hold to as being beautiful. Just look at all the beauty adds of whitening cream and you'll understand what I mean.

THIS is why I was so attracted to her even when I was a child :) I didn't know about it back then, but now I finally do, which is a new self-discovery for me :)

 *well, also the romantic story she had with John Smith XD*

Till next time :)



Wednesday, November 27, 2013

My First Year of Teaching

*Me and my AWESOME collab :D*

*copied from my FB status; modified just a little bit :)*

17 of November 2013 marks the end of my first year of teaching! Alhamdulillah, and HOORAAY! :D
Thanks to all who have given me support, advice and encouragement throughout the year! Especially to Him, my family, friends and Definitely my AMAZING collab Farihah :) Couldn't have done it without you! Thank you for listening to my ranting especially when some kids demands a slap from us haha Thank God we didn't! XD

Time really flies sooo quickly, even though within the year we did felt like it was FOREVER (aaahh cepatlah weekend. But then, weekend ni ade PGDE. Ade LADAP. Ade extra class. Ade.. I WANT TO SLEEP) But then again, when we had our celebratory dinner, we felt like wow, the year is over already! :) (and we made it, somehow. haha XD)

What I felt when I started the year teaching English and Sejarah form 4 was anxiety, excitement, nervousness, optimism and so many more emotions bundled up together! I completely had no clue on how to teach Sejarah (History) because it was my LEAST favourite subject in school. Andd thenn I realized that teaching language is no easy task either; you may be able to speak a language fluently, but teaching it is a whole new level!

I honestly felt like we were being given a dagger, and maybe a biscuit-tin's lid as a shield and being thrown into a battlefield hearing the leader saying 'Okay go fight the ENEMIES! Goodbye now!' WHAT WHAT WAIT!!! XD

It's definitely a DO or DIE situation (well not that dramatic perhaps). With a dagger and a biscuit-tin's lid as a shield, you learn to fight by upgrading your weaponry, and constantly adapting to the environment. Learning the moves of your opponent. Learning how to create new weapons and shields to increase your offense and defense.

That, is what a teacher does.

Well, that is what a passionate and dedicated teacher does. (silalah terasa bahaha) Teaching is NEVER the same, and you constantly change the way you teach, what you teach, and it even differs between classes, within A DAY! Everyday is a new battle, a new strategy. In a day, your success and failures, your emotions are constantly on a roller-coaster ride. You might feel like 'I pulled it off just now! Alhamdulillah :)' in one class, and then when you walk into another class you go 'WHY U KIDS NO LISTEN??'

Going into teaching, my respect for my school teacher sky-rocketed. Teachers are definitely UNDERRATED! With so many things aside from teaching the wonderful-sometimes-horrible kids that the teachers have to do, they even have time to go back home, cook EVERYDAY for their children, send them to school, take care of them when they are sick, etc. I don't even have a family yet and I couldn't even find some time for myself!
Thank you so much for teaching me for all those years, my dear teachers :)

Long and behold, I noticed that Sejarah was actually easier to teach compared to English because it was content-based. Anddd I am still almost absolutely CLUELESS on how to teach English effectively! (well, time to do research over these few weeks! XD)

I could go on and on about all the experiences I have gained throughout the year, but there are definitely a few ups and downs during the year;

DOWNS:
- There are still a few kids who skips classes, who seldom comes to school. And because of that they are behind their studies.
- I have yet to be able to completely control my roudy-naughty class or kids.
- A fight did break out in one of my classes which I could have prevented had I been more attentive.
- There are a WHOLE bunch of kids who are absolutely compliant, they do all their work, they do not cause any ruckus or disruption in class, but still could not pass their exams :'( *heart-broken*
- Then there are these other bunch of kids who are smart and capable of so much more. Because they skip classes, do not come to school often, they could not do as well as they should in exams or even in class :(
- Still getting empty papers for History exam. T_T (though not many, but still..)
- Watching a few intelligent kids start to laze around because of his friends. Wasting his true potential and perhaps his future :'(

UPS:
- Other teachers in school are very supportive, and shares SO MANY valuable experiences and strategies I could use for my classes :)
- It might have been tough, but kids are starting to speak in English regardless of the funny mistakes XD
- Kids laugh at me when they hear me say certain things in English which sounded funny to them. And theennn they start to say it too. ISH! :P
- I am taken completely by surprise when kids start to tell me: cikgu ajar Sejarah best! Senang faham! (it's fun when YOU teach History! We understand well :D) -WHAT SORCERY HAVE I DONE?? (but still, Alhamdulillah XD)
- There is a quite reprimanding and pessimistic culture within the kids, where if they were rooting for their friends in a sports competition, they would reprimand the other team to bring their morale down. But when my collab and I started shouting positive encouragement to OUR team, the kids start to follow almost INSTANTLY. *One or two person could make all the difference :)*
- On one of those days when I have COMPLETELY lost my voice, and I still came to school to teach (using body language alone to teach, btw), I stepped into my most roudy History class which had a lot of boys. Anticipating a complete failure and a out-of-control class because I did not have my voice, I still started teaching.
To my surprise, the ROUDY and LOUD boys KNEW all the class procedures and how I would usually teach, and STILL participated even without the presence of my voice: I wrote down the questions on board (I usually just ask with my VOICE :P) and they write the answer on the mini whiteboards. After the count of ten, they lift the answers up. If they get it right, their group gets a point. Most of them are in their seats, answering questions. And to my surprise, one of the most roudy kids (who sometimes walk around in class WHILE I TEACH) came up front and even helped me to read out the questions, knowing that I lost my voice :') This boy even helped me throughout the class to get the class's attention when they sometimes start to lose their focus.
*Teacher WIN with student's help :')*
 
*Happily playing BEFORE an exam. XD*
 
- Some students who usually sleeps through the exam, or did not do the English essays because it is too hard for them stays awake throughout exams, tries to write as much as possible. Kids start to tell me that they had ideas, but was only able to write a paragraph because there was not enough time or they had a hard time translating. Even then, they are starting to TRY and not just throw the paper away and give up. :')
 
*ahh silly little kids. Me love you anyways :D*
 
- Remember that kid who walks around while I teach History? He did not do well in his History end of year exam, but to my surprise, ALL his answers (even though incorrect) were still IN CONTEXT. Compared to his peers who wrote nonsense like BN and PAS for pengaruh politik di dalam piagam Madinah, his answers were still logical and within the History scope! *There's still hope :')*
- Kids from my English classes still wants me to teach them next year (because there's a possibility that we might not get the same bunch of kids *cries*) despite me being CLUELESS in their classes :P
- Those kids who are very quiet and complacent students in class, actually told me that 'cikgu kalau cikgu tak ajar tahun depan kita mogok, rebel, tunjuk perasaan!' Another very SWEET student told me that she would write a letter to the principal or the MOE department if I do not teach her next year. *WHAT HAVE I DONE? XD*
 
*Sweet 4S3 girls :D*
Nurain, Zarifah, Maisarah, Haniza, Adilah, Nadiah, Anis and Aina!
- Kids sighing or started to panic when I said I might not teach them next year. Some even said 'Humph klu camtu CONFIRM FAIL' ahhh you silly little kids. I still love you though XD
- Some kids in 4K1 class (which is one of the back classes) actually scored BETTER in kids in the upper classes! GOOD JOB KIDS! :D
 
*They passed Sejarah! HOORAYY!! XD*
 
- Witnessed a 10-25 marks increase in History for one of my classes when they compared their marks to their mid-year exam. Happy teacher is happy :')

 
*They got keychains from LONDON due to their increase! :D*

All in all, I am still LEARNING and improving my offense and defense :) Teaching is also a learning process in itself.
I am honestly excited and looking forward to my second year of teaching! There is so much room for improvement, and so many more things to explore and knowledge to gain :) Insya-Allah, I will do my best for the upcoming year.

Thank you kids for this wonderful year :')

*this is what happens when you come to school on a SUNDAY XD*

*EOY celebration! :D*

*Goodbye mah table :D*

*4RC2 :D*

*The incredible V1 :P*
 

Sunday, November 10, 2013

My Best Friend's Wedding :)


My funny, kind, talented and cheerful friend finally tied the knot! :D

Imagine knowing your best friend of your childhood days (well when I was in high school, not too young haha) has finally grown up!

Got a chance to meet him and his gf (now WIFE! :D) before I flew to the States 6 years back *OMG*, and have yet to meet them after I got back until they tied the knot. Gosh, how the world works is truly amazing :)

So happy to see that both of them are extremely happy with smiles on their faces! :D Am glad to also see that he is successful :') God is indeed Great! :)

Alhamdulillah! May the both of you achieve happiness and blessings from Him until Jannah! :D

 
*Groom's side! Accompanied by my bestiess :)) <3 p="">

 

VLOG today

This is what happens when you go to school on a Sunday :P (well not always)

It's been a while since my last vlog.. So menggedik sorang2 sekejap haha XD

Have a great week ahead! :)

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Speech Time!

 
*On one of those days I lost my voice XD*
 
Assalamualaikum w.b.t. :)

So today I was teaching my kids how to write a speech. And for them to remember the format, I got them to do a short speech on any random things they want to share. Some of them shared about their ruler, pencil box, best friend and even wife! Hahaha XD It was definitely hilarious when some random things happen today and yesterday:

- One boy was talking about his friend's ruler and was holding the ruler. Because he was sort of nervous, he actually broke his friend's ruler in two! XD
- One boy looked out the window to get inspiration during his speech! It was like an awkward 10 seconds stare outside of class
- A lot of girls talked about their best friends
- One boy talked about whiteboard; said I was LAZY  because I had a mahjong paper up. I WROTE on the mahjong paper laahhh XD
- One shyyy boy spoke in fair sentences but was smiling a lot. I like you! :D
- One girl who rarely speaks in class actually talked about her friends; even pointed out her friends who laughed very LOUDLY in class hahaha :P

  
*this class; photo was during sandwich day :P*

*my other English class: sandwich day too :P*

And theenn we actually had extra time in class once everyone finished their speech. So I asked them what they wanted me to talk about. And yesss this dear class of mine said without hesitation FIANCE FIANCE!!
*the mother of 12 :P*
 
Little did they know about my update, I decided to share my story with them :)

*of course I told them okay, but this is a secret! XD*

I shared a short-version on how I got engaged, who he was and how it ended. While I was sharing my story, one girl had to go to the restroom and her friends were like 'You go awayyy quicklyy teacherr sambung teacherr' hahaha XD Yes, my roudy little kids were giving 100000% attention to my story XD

After I ended my story with advices to my dear little kids, to my surprise they were so very supportive! Some of the words of encouragement they gave were;

- Teacher, be strong!
- Teacher, I'm sorry... *me: err it's not your fault hahaha XD*
- Teacher, are you okay?
- Don't worry teacher! A lot of.. other people!
- Teacher, don't worry! I HAVE A BROTHER!
my reply: I DOWAN YOUR BROTHER hahahahaa XD

both boys and girls actually said really nice things to support me, even though I told them that I was okay and that I was the one who ended it as I know it was the best for both of us.

*and believe it or not, two BOYS noticed that I changed my ring and no longer wore the golden ring. BOYS I TELL YOU*

- the girls were basically ASTONISHED when I told them the ring I was wearing was RM21 (or RM29.. I can't remember. Bad memory kicks in) They said 'TEACHER BUT IT LOOKS SO EXPENSIVE!' hahaha oh kidss XD

To add to my surprise, one girl who is quite close to me and my collab actually came to me after her English extra class and said to me "Teacher, I have something to ask you..."

*during their extra class: shy shy cat*
 
And after overcoming her shyness (kononnya haha) she said teacher, is it true? Anddd apparently she was SUPER worried and felt sorry for me, and said I looked like I wanted to cry when I told them my story in class. *I am HONESTLY okay, I wonder how I actually looked like when I was telling the story XD*

I told her that I am completely okaayy and yes it is true haha XD Even after talking to her and assuring her I am okay, she decided to talk to my collab to 'take care of Miss Iliani' hahaha XD

According to Farihah, it was as though 'the world has ended' from the way she was telling Farihah that I am definitely not okay and she really is worried about me (she felt sad too) and asked my collab to jaga me basically. Said Miss Iliani tipu jer tu dia ckp dia okay XD

Hahahaa ohh dear kids, your support and innocent love really touches me :) Thank you so much!

** Of course nobody would want things to go badly, but when things happen you deal with it. If you fall, you pick yourself up from the ground and move on. And I truly believe there is always, ALWAYS a blessing in disguise :)

*really, how can you not love these kids? XD*

Alhamdulillah, He is always with me in my ups and downs :) Thank you oh Allah. Thank you for my wonderful kids as well :)

'Till next time! Assalamualaikum :)